May 27, 2010
Claiming My Life: An act of self love
I have been in a lifelong healing process. Sometimes it’s mental. Sometimes it’s physical. Sometimes it’s spiritual. Sometimes it’s all of them or any combination of the three. I have really come to see that it doesn’t matter which it is because it is all here to be worked out, and my commitment to myself is to do that.
I have been in a friend’s singing class called “Claiming Your Voice”. You may know of her, Susan Lincoln, she is the originator of HildeGirls. She is very talented, compassionate, present to the gifts of art in healing one’s heart and soul, and committed and generous in being available to share her gifts and talents through her work with those like myself. Doing this class has given me an effective way to continue my healing. It gives me a venue to look at myself with love and permission to be right where I am.
I see through being in this class that I really do want to be free to be myself. This is a major necessity in healing. This means claiming my authenticity and letting go of thoughts that tell me I should be different or that I am not enough. It is also about living and honoring who I am and who others are. One of the ways that I am learning to do this is to call friends and/or family and sing to them. In the past, singing to someone has been reserved to a very few, both because I feel shy, but also because I had to feel a certain way about them to sing to them.
Now, I realize it’s really about feeling a certain way about me. The voices in my head can stop the offering of my singing to another in a flash by working to make me feel bad about myself! But just now in writing this, I realized that singing to another and myself is mandatory to me. Why? Because it is about claiming my life. Every time I allow the voices in my brain to trick me by telling me I am not enough and I should be different than I am, or that singing to myself or another doesn’t matter because I don’t matter, I am letting the fictitious veil of the voices tell me lies, and, worse, I am believing them. NO MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I CLAIM MY LIFE and every precious moment of it. It is a gift for me, to me, and from me if I choose. Claiming my life is a choice that I choose to make today.
Love,
Suzanne
